I miserably fail on seducing.

I don't understand why I have to go through this.

Sunday, June 5, 2011

They say that there are many fishes in the sea, so many that you can pick any from those fishes. Am I right? Or I paraphrased it wrong? There are too many people, and you have a choice to pick one from those whom you'll go after. You're lucky if that person chooses you too; Sorry if he doesn't.

The universe is unfair, although it balances things. Although, I know that balance doesn't equal fairness. Or does balance really equate to fairness? I really can't fathom.

"Nothing is balance in this world; even the heart is asymmetrical.", a poet said. Now we must understand the irony: Life is unfair; The universe is unfair, but it balances things.

Image from here.

I don't understand why I have to go through this. I just understand that I have to go through this. I could say that I just said what is in my chest that I am supposed to say, and it is just up to him on how he would take it. I could say that I am being fair with my selfish self, just spilling it all out, and not care about the world. I shouldn't care about how the world would revolve since it revolves around the sun by itself and the small me couldn't do anything about it but deal with it. I could say that it is his loss. Well, for me, for my ego which has been crying out loud, it really is his loss. I could say that it is fair to me since I had let it all out.

Screencap from The Big Empty.
Watch it, guys! It almost describes my life.

However, is it really fair for me? Do I deserve this? Is this what I get from rejecting every person who wants to come into my life? Somehow, half of me says that I don't think that it's fair, that I don't think I deserve to be in this situation.

Well, I say that, I am human (AND I NEED TO BE LOVED~ JUST LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE DOES~~~ LOL The Smiths), and I think it is part of human nature to go after something that I want for myself. It's like concluding that every single thing that you do in your life, even if you say that you're doing it for whoever that somebody is, you're doing it for yourself, not and never for anybody else.

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